Gush, Gush, Wedding Stuff

Went and got our engagement photos taken on Saturday; had an absolute blast. Center of attention? Check. In the photos rather than taking them? Check. With my man? Check. What more could a girl ask for? Really excited to see how they came out... Our photographers are the wonderful Robert and Karina Gillette - incredibly enjoyable, funny, lively people, who have been remarkably patient and helpful with everything, AND do fantastic work. If you're interested, you can check out their website here: http://www.robertgillette.us/

That photograph was posted by Karina, as part of her 365 project for the year, along with the following story, which I had relayed to her about the history of the ring:
"Today we photographed an engagement session with our new friends K and W. We had a really fun time with these two. My favorite moment was hearing about the awesome story about this beautiful ring. 100 years ago in 1910, W's grandparents were married with this ring. After W had proposed, and the wedding planning had begun, he went in to get the ring resized for K. The jeweler found a small inscription on the ring of the date of his grandparents wedding. With K & W's wedding already planned for 10-10-10, he discovered that his grandparents were married that same day 100 years earlier."

...Pretty neat, eh?

I have to admit, I did have a bit of a 'freak-out' moment during the photo shoot... W and I had been posed for a photo for a few moments, and I jokingly asked Karina if I could, "quit looking at this guy." W chuckled and jumped in with, "Not for the next thirty years."

At which point I had a silent spazz attack that looked a lot like this (insert mental conversation): "Holy crap. Thirty years?? I haven't even been ALIVE thirty years! Am I really qualified to make a promise like this??? To spend longer than I've even been alive with someone???"

It passed quickly enough, and it was still a little disconcerting... I spent the next day or so thinking about it, and once again going over things in my head. I have a really hard time with feeling 'good enough' for all this. It just amazes me, you know? I love my fiance - more than I ever dreamed possible, much less probable. He brings me so much joy and fulfillment, even on our worst of days... I can't imagine living life without him. When I am by myself, it's that feeling of being whole, separate, and unique... and still only half of something much greater. I read a conversation in a story once that took place between a grandmother and her grandson and the line that fit so well for me was this: 'Son, you might marry another woman, but you will never have another Wife.'

This is the way that I feel about W - he is my other half, my perfect compliment, the man put in this world to be my Husband. To know that someone I feel that way about, feels that way about me? It's... amazing. Beyond amazing.

Don't get me wrong, I know we're both human - we both do things that confuse or surprise or irritate the other one every once in a while, that's what being human is all about, those little differences - and at the same time, we're bonded by something that runs so much deeper than that.

"Love is capable of uniting living beings in such a way as to complete and fulfill them, for it alone takes them and joins them by what is deepest in themselves." -Teilhand De Chaardin