And for that I am grateful.

I am totally, utterly, completely blessed.

I am human, I forget this sometimes.

And, on days like today, at the end of weeks like the past two weeks, I remember that.

Call it luck, call it hard work, call it whatever you like... I am absolutely, amazingly grateful for where I am in life these days.

It seems to have come from the gift of desperation - being so absolutely desperate for change, any type of change, that I became willing to take the actions, any actions, necessary.

Sometimes it was little things - "Yes, Self, I know you want that shirt, but you don't need to buy it right now."

Sometimes it was bigger things - setting boundaries, being vulnerable, stepping away from toxic friendships, not letting myself 'settle' even when I was terrified of the unknown.

Sometimes, I can't even see the difference. I don't always see the progress I've made, or the results of my efforts - sometimes it feels like everything is falling apart at once - and then, I walk through it, and as I'm standing on the other side, I realize how very differently I handled things, and I realize one more time how much things have changed.

How grateful I am that they have.

My fiance. My job - not just what I do, but the people I do it with. My relationship with my family. My incredible friends. Having an adult relationship around money. Being able to spend time with myself, and noticing that the company has dramatically improved.

Thank you, for everything.